Read This F*cking Book Challenge #1


This feature was born back in December when the four of us were chatting books and Tiffany said this I seriously am making a reading list. My life is a cluster fuck.   You see, Tiffany reads like…five authors. Debbie only about three. Leah reads anything and everything and there is NO rhyme or reason to what she loves or hates. And, more often than not lately, Ali hates everything unless there is anal.  All of our lives are a cluster fuck. Which gave us the idea of picking each others books. 

That’s what the Read This F*cking Book Challenge is. We’ve been compiling lists of books for the other girls to read – within our limits. Yes, we all have some hard limits.  They are as follows:

Ali – Fucking brides. Weddings. Cancer kids. Alexa Riley.

Debbie – Tarryn Fisher. Ghosts (unless “They’re Beetlejuice/Patrick Swayze friendly type of ghosts”). Cheating. Books with NO sex!

Leah – Rockstars. Priests. Writers.

Tiffany – Ghosts. Dragqueens. 

Of course, we’re all bitches and we’re picking books we know will push the other girls comfort zones or force us to read something we would have never picked up before. It’s been fun times and we’ll be periodically updating y’all on what we’ve read and what our thoughts and conversations were about those books.  Hope you enjoy!

Tiffany read Flawed by Kate Avelynn, picked by Debbie.


Sarah O’Brien is alive because of the pact she and her brother made twelve years ago — James will protect her from their violent father if she promises to never leave him. For years, she’s watched James destroy his life to save hers. If all he asks for in return is her affection, she’ll give it freely.

Until, with a tiny kiss and a broken mind, he asks for more than she can give.

Sam Donavon has been James’ best friend — and the boy Sarah’s had a crush on — for as long as she can remember. As their forbidden relationship deepens, Sarah knows she’s in trouble. Quiet, serious Sam has decided he’s going to save her. Neither of them realizes James is far more unstable than her father ever was, or that he’s not about to let Sarah forget her half of the pact…

Day 1:

Tiffany: Debbie this isn’t a brother fucker book is it?

Debbie: Just read it Tiny Vag.

Tiffany: Flawed so far  🙂  🙂  🙂 

Debbie: I think Tiffany will like Flawed. It’ll leave her a little anguished.

Day 2:

Tiffany: Debbie! What the actual fuck! Omg!

Debbie: Did you finish?

Tiffany: I hate you. That means yes. And since finishing I stalked Kate. And read both alternate endings.

Tiffany: I hope you get frostbite from the snow! Tiffany won’t like my book, there’s no sadness she says…Lies!Lies!

Debbie: Did you cry? Did it break your heart?

Tiffany:  Yes!!!! Because it was so unexpected! Like I knew crazy shit was going to go down… But not how it did.

Debbie: I knew you would like that.

Tiffany’s Final Thoughts: 

Really of the four of us I may like sad shit the most, but after Debbie so gracefully gave me this book to read I am now thinking she may be the one with the twisted soul on the inside! *she said it wouldn’t break my heart, she’s a LIAR* 


I did love this book but Sarah did irritate me a little though and here’s why… As you can see I thought this was a brother fucker at first, and though it wasn’t it did have some weird vibes.  Sarah & James ,her brother, were abused since well basically forever by their father, and James promises to always try and protect her. Somewhere along the lines their relationship becomes complete dependency needing each other and I get that… But I feel like sharing a bed with your 19 year old brother and spooning is a bit odd! Or always letting him talk so close to your mouth that he’s actually kissing you. Lastly, even when Sarah became involved with Sam she realized her dynamic with her brother was wrong, she admitted it, and still continued to demonstrate the same behavior.

JAMES lets focus on him because I LOVED him, he was twisted and fucked up but in his state of mind you couldn’t hate him, you just felt for him.  He was doomed from the start and he needed help but there was no help for him so he coped with the resources that were readily available to him and that happened to be drugs & fighting.

Let me just fast forward cause I’m about to summarize the whole dang book and we’ll be here forever, I loved it… Even though I was expecting shit to go down I didn’t think it would come barreling at me the way it did. End goal, yes it made me cry which is the point when I read. LOL!  But if you happen to read this and then flip the fuck out like I did just know Debbie and I are here for you! Oh yeah and trust me when I say you’re going to want to hunt down the alternate endings to to FLAWED!

Debbie’s Rebuttal:

Flawed was actually a book that I wanted all the Black Heart ladies to read. We all love dark, twisted stories, but I knew this would be perfect for Tiffany because it would make her cry…which is a like a reading requirement for her. I’m glad she loved it, and didn’t hate me for giver her an “incest” book. I know the synopsis of the book alludes to some kinds of incestuous activity, but I promise you it’s not about that. It’s about siblings who have endured physical and emotional abuse their whole lives, and how it’s totally f*cked them up. While Flawed might not be an easy read, it’s definitely one that you do not want to miss. It’s been years since I read this book and I still regard it as one of the most unforgettable books that I have ever read. 


Ali read Kick Push by Jay McLean, picked by Tiffany.


There’s a single defining moment within every skater.
It lasts only a second. Two if you’re good.
Three if you’re really good.
It’s the moment you’re in the air, your board somewhere beneath you, and nothing but wind surrounds you.
It’s the feeling of being airborne.

The sixteen-year-old version of me would’ve said it was the greatest feeling in the world.
Then at seventeen, I had my son.
And every single second became a defining moment. Even the ones that consisted of heartbreak when his mother left us.

Seventeen. Single. Dad.
That’s what my life became.
Yet, every day, I managed to find that feeling of being airborne.
Or at least I convinced myself I did.
But I lied—to myself and to everyone around me.
Until she showed up; Tanned skin, raven dark hair, and eyes the color of emeralds.

You know what sucks about being in the air?
Coming down from the high.
Sometimes you land on the board and nail the trick.
Then kick, push, and coast away.
Other times you fall.
You fall hard.
And those are the times when it’s not as easy to get back up, dust off your pads and try again.
Especially when the girl with the emerald eyes becomes your drug…
And you become her poison.

Ali: I finished Kick Push.

Tiffany: Did you hate it???

Leah: Aaaaand?

Debbie: Hahahaha! I like how the first question is “did you hate it?” Not “did you like it”

Ali: I’m all over the place with it.

Tiffany: Oh shit….good or bad?

Ali: Some things I HATED, some things I LOVED. It’s kind of a mess.

Leah: Which did you hate? Do tell!

Debbie: Hahahaha

Ali:  Why do they shout and yell so much? At times, it felt like a young adult book.  Way too childish and dramatic. Especially for the overall content.

Tiffany: Josh did yell a lot.

Debbie:  Can I just say…. I’m in the lead.

Ali: But then you get to Becs chapter where she’s talking about her past, and it felt very true and real.

Debbie: Ali liked the book I picked.

Ali: I really don’t know what I think of this one.

Leah: Fucking Debbie with her own side dialogue going on.

Debbie: I didn’t hear any…all over the place or no 267 characters.   —> Referring to a book Leah recommended to Ali  and Ali wasn’t happy about the number of characters in it.

Ali: I loved Tommy.

Tiffany: Tommy is adorable.

Leah: 267 characters. Haha jesus fuck. There’s like 5. Ish. Is Tommy the kid?

Tiffany: Honestly I think you would like the first book more but there’s cancer in it, lol.

Ali: There is way more than 5, you liar.

Leah: Tomato, toe-maw-toe

Ali’s Final Thoughts:

*will almost certainly include some spoilerish comments – read at your own fucking risk*

The Bad:
1. Why the fuck does everyone (Josh) yell and scream so much? It felt very Young Adult to me. You can argue that he never had the chance to grow up and yada, yada, yada…but I’m going to tell you that when you have a kid and you’re raising them like he is – you grow the fuck up fast.

2. Why the hell would Becca care if Tommy’s grandparent’s were still involved in his life? They are his mother effing grand parents. It doesn’t have to mean shit about shit in regards to Tommy’s mom. I didn’t understand this part. At all.

3. The prologue was all too convenient. I almost stopped reading after it. I’m glad I didn’t, but I almost did none the less.

4. Josh has some epic monologues. Yet, basically refuses to talk about some pretty important shit. As does Becca.

5. Which brings me to #5…I never could fully invest in their love story when they never had real conversations. They didn’t even truly know each other.

*deep breath*

The Good:
1. I loved that Josh took his responsibility as a dad as serious as he did. He’s a pretty good dad, especially considering his circumstances.

2. I liked Becca quite a lot. I understand her actions way more so than Josh’s when it came to the no talking business mentioned above. It made sense for her.

3. I liked how Josh was slow and tender with Becca at the beginning of their relationship. It was sweet.

4. Tommy

5. Tommy

6. Tommy

7. Tommy

8. I like how it ended (with a big To Be Continued). I think the time apart and the growing up is VERY much needed.

Tiffany’s Rebuttal: 

I may have no defense for this… Lol. But hey you loved Tommy and that works for me! Really though I did adore the ending as well, but for me I’m hoping they don’t end up together when the second book comes around. I’m an ass I know but I want Josh to be like nope you left me now deal with it.  That’s just me and my cynical ass ways though.

I just realized you had more likes than dislikes so I’m going to take that as a WIN!

Debbie read Wings Over Poppies by J.A. DeRouen, picked by Leah


Perfection. One word. Three syllables. Every reason why I’ll never have the one thing I truly want. I stand dutifully on the pedestal he’s built, waiting for the day he truly sees me.

Then one amazing night, he lets down his walls, only to leave me the next day.

Years have passed, and I’ve tried to move on with my life. But I still dream of him. I still miss him everyday. The memories haunt me. How can I look to the future when my past remains a mystery? The time has come to find the boy who stole my heart and ran away without a word.

But not everyone who is lost wants to be found.

My name is Alexandra Fontaine, and this is my story of unfinished love.


Part 1:

Debbie: Leah….will this book have a secret baby because OMG….i would absolutely love this book.

Leah: Hahahaha, I LOVE secret babies.

Debbie: Friends to lover, boy from the wrong side of the tracks, secret baby would equal EPIC.

Leah: Love that shit.

Debbie: Wait….don’t tell if there’s a secret baby. I want to be “shocked”.

Part 2:

Debbie: BTDubs……Leah is winning. She picked the right book for me.

Ali: Yay! Debbie can read 4 authors now!

Leah: I wish you could see the dance moves I just busted out. Haaahahahaha ali.

Debbie: (insert rude middle finger emoji here – twice) Ali

Ali: Hahaha! I love you asshole fuckers. My days would suck without you.

Debbie: Fucking Leah. This fucking book made me shed a tear or two.

Part 3:

Debbie: He lives in the same town as her! I bet her moved there because he knew she was there. Right? Am I right?

Leah: Just read dammit! Hahahaha

Debbie: Fine. TTYL.

Debbie: OMG!

Debbie: West has a beard now!

Leah: Hahahaha. I was thinking u were at that part. I almost blew it. 

Debbie: You might get tired of my play by play.

Debbie: West is an asshole. He’s an asshole.

Debbie: West with a beard is an asshole!

Debbie: WALL SEX! (inserts GIF of drag queen doing high kicks)

Debbie’s Final Thoughts:

Wings Over Poppies turned out to be just my kind of read. It’s got friends to lovers, boy from the wrong side of the tracks, military man, and second chance at love. J.A. DeRouen plays with your emotions with this book. I felt euphoric while reading about Alex & West’s early relationship, and then DeRouen crushes you when something breaks Alex & West apart. DeRouen then she lets you feel that glimmer of hope again when Alex & West are reunited, but then stomps all over your heart when West acts like a total jackass. I was upset for like a nano second but you soon realize that West wasn’t the same West anymore. 

While I may have a black heart, I yearn for books like Wings Over Poppies. This was exactly the kind of book I needed to get me back into my reading groove after months and months of being stuck in a reading slump. Thanks for the rec, Leah! I just hope the rest of these bitches give me these kinds of books to read. LOL!

Leah’s Rebuttal:

I was so fucking nervous for this, because this book holds a super special place in my heart, and I still think about these characters a year later. So when I put it on Debbie’s list, I almost took it off out of self-preservation. But when she was loving it?!  I totally humped everything within five feet of me as celebration. *thrusts hips*


Leah read Blood Warrior by H.D. Gordon, picked by Ali.

blood warrior

When her home is attacked by murderous vampires, 17-year-old Alexa is forced to leave her mother for dead in order to save her sister. She soon learns that she is the last known member of an elite race of supernatural Warriors, and is thrust into a world full of vampires and werewolves who all seem to regard her as some sort of savior. Meanwhile, Alexa battles a monster within herself that seeks to gain control; a monster that seeks blood.

The hidden city she finds herself in appears perfect, but Alexa’s instincts tell her that all is not right within its walls. When she is asked to attend a school of fighters, whose exams consist of gladiator-style competitions, she must decide who she can trust among the smiling faces. And, when she meets Kayden, a vampire she feels undeniably drawn to, she must decide if she can trust herself.


There was zero conversation for this book, Leah devoured the entire series before she said anything about reading them.

Leah: Ali, just finished the Alexa Montgomery series. Did u read the last book?

Ali: Not yet. Who dies?!?!?!?

Leah: Dude. I’m angry. But it feels good.


Leah: I don’t mind who died, I just don’t like how OPEN to interpretation the rest is…  I’m gonna sit on it before I decide, lol.

Ali: grrr

Leah’s Final Thoughts:  

It’s so true.  I picked up book one, and before I knew it I had finished the entire series in days.  This series is so full of action, of lies, of plotting, of death.  I loved it.  Each character plays such a perfect role, there is never any added fluff, or bullshit, and the story line just keeps chuggin’ along and keeps you on the edge of your seat until you finish the fourth book and end up eating your feelings away while staring at walls just to comprehend what the fuck you just experienced.

Ali’s Rebuttal:

I’m a little behind, obviously. I need to jump on book four ASAP. But, I’m so glad Leah loved the series as a whole. I think Gordon has a special way of writing girls who kick ass.  And though it’s a Young Adult series, she doesn’t shy away from some tough themes.  I had a feeling Leah would like the Alexa Montgomery series…but you never know with her. She’s a very unpredictable reader.


  • Betül

    Love this challenge!! Loved reading what all of you though about the books picked by another! I personally LOVE Flawed & Kick Push!!

  • LOL I would have loved to just read your conversations 😀

  • I fucking love you guys. 🙂 I never comment (I’m sorry, I suck) but I love your convos and reviews!

  • Deb

    I love the shit out of you guys!

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